2025-04-08_slower

i need a longer break than three days. i need to stop expecting 150% from myself all the time. i need to relax, even though there’s so little to be relaxed about at this moment in history. but i need to fight the mechanisms in m(e) that require constant ‘Leistung’ from m(y) body in order to deem it worthy of praise, love and existence. because even though it might churn out results in the short term, we all know where it/i will end. so still don’t take it easy, but do at least take it slower. for example: get somewhat used to what others call a ‘normal semester workload’ again.